holidays schmolidays

Here comes the holiday season.  Prior to having kids, there was a bad part of holidays with missing my mom and so many changes.  My family and I tried our best and embraced a lot of what we could to make the days special.  There is so much hype on holidays, when really it is the regular day stuff that matters.  I see my nephew(s) a few times a week and those are the memories my kids will remember, not that we went to someone's house for a meal on Thanksgiving.  Hopefully my kids can participate in some of the game nights we will have, play sports with my nephews, and we do a lot of seasonal activities together.  That is my hope.

For this season,  I am not into it.  I was glad when my sister said to have the holidays be low key this year and more about just us.  I was happy with that.  I know Nicky will be more into the presents than my kids and I just want to move past all of that, into other things the kids can do together.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving.

Last year on Thanksgiving, Landon played well with the kids and overall, we had a great day.  Tomorrow, he still doesn't talk much.  Each morning when we wake up, I pray for him to say "hi." And when the first bits of jargon or closed mouth speech start, I know we have another day of fighting this crap.  What does it have to do with the holidays?  I don't want to remember whining or sadness or frustration on holidays.  I don't want to have to have looks saying why doesn't he talk or use a fork or whatever. My own family gets it, mostly my sister, but the extended people really don't.

I am thankful for my boys and for God trusting me to be their mom.  I am praying that by NEXT year, we are in a much better place.  (These pictures are from last Thanksgiving!)