Monday, June 23, 2014

What am I missing?

I think I know I am missing out of something.  I read my friend, Kate's, blog at Finding Cooper's Voice, and her 16 month old is advanced, not just advanced for a child with another kiddo with some difficulty, but he is advanced all over the place.  I have two children who both have speech delays, low normal tone, and other issues.  I am missing out.  I realize I am not going to be able to understand what it was like to just have your child crawl without actually teaching them.  I am working with Logan on self feeding.  He picks up the food, but he doesn't have the shoulder stability to bring to his mouth.  If you leave food hanging out of his mouth, he will bring his hand up and push it in, so he has parts of that, but not yet all. That is a struggle.  He is taking steps now and that's awesome.  He is so motivated to walk.  He is not yet babbling, just uses some vowel sounds.

Landon is 33 months today.  In some ways, I am so proud of him, and I always tell myself, that this is not his fault anyways, but it's so hard to see sometimes, especially with other kids.  He is so far behind. It's scary, because I worry, if he doesn't make more progress over the summer, he will turn 3, being well over a year behind in all developmental areas.  I am scared out of my mind.  I go to counseling on Tuesdays and usually just repeat, "It's just not fair." and it's not.  I see other kids who just can see a ball and say ball, no problem.  They repeat things easily. It's not fair and I am doing this twice.  I am not going to be able to just see my kids do things without a lot of work.

I am thankful they are both happy and healthy. 

Just keep praying.

1 comment:

  1. Oh honey. This is all so hard. I totally get it. I feel like you are me 6 months ago. I am no where through this journey but I realize I have come so far. And then I look at Moms on other blogs that are light years ahead of me. Enjoy your boys. They are amazing and so unbelievably cute. I am so glad we found each other!